Hello there @ Wednesday, December 8, 2010
Shocked.
Speechless.
Numbness.
Am I going to die?
Will they cut off my leg?
What will happen to me?
Questions bombarded my mind when the doctor told me the result.
Tears were about to flood my face but nenek was there.
So I held back those tears.
The first thought actually was,
Nick Jonas.
Anyway at that point of time,I was so so pissed.
cos while I was still in a state of shock and
while the doctor was trying to explain to me bout everything,
I had like calls from the office.
my collegues.
Called me regarding JUICE?
When Im in a desperate situation.
Just imagine my pain.
Just imagine.
So after I took my medicines I ate with nenek.
The pain and feeling of lost came back when I reach Mummy Sal house.
I could hear the doctor's voice at the back of my head,
telling me;
You have to drink Milo, without sugar.
You can't eat mayonnaise and chilli sauce.
You can't eat fried chicken.
No more seafood for you.
& at the same time I could the numbness in my body.
I couldn't feel my fingers(till now.)
I could barely feel my legs.
My head was spinning.
Was I overreacting?
Then mummy called and that's it.
I burst.
I feel guilty for doing so, cos I know deep down she's more devastated than I am.
But she kept being strong for me.
So Daddy fetched us from Mummy Sal and went back t JB.
We went to Tesco.
For the first time I felt so weird and uneasy.
Cos I didnt know which food to choose.
I didn't know whiCH food I can take and which I can't.
But Mummy was there to ensure everything's alright.
So in conclusion.
Today is a new chapter of my life.
Something that I have gained that can never be erased or removed from me.
Something I have to live with my whole life.
An enemy that I have to give 101% attention and commitment.
Hello there,
Diabetes.